Well we made it to one month!

Honestly there were times I wasn’t sure how I would ever get through those first few weeks. Between recovering from major surgery and learning how to tend to a newborn, this month has had it’s challenges.

Of course it also had many moments of absolute joy!

I feel like I never really understood just how quickly time goes by until I had Lila. Even though it’s only been a month, it seems like the weeks, days, hours and seconds fly by with her. And she’s growing so much – almost 8 lbs from 6 lbs 10 ounces. It’s wonderful to see her grow and heartbreaking at the same time. I want her to be my baby forever!

In an effort to freeze time if only on this blog post, here are some things about Lila in this first month that I wanted to get down on paper so I can remember always.

– Lila likes to fight sleep. Almost like she doesn’t want to miss out on anything. She’ll literally sleep with one eye open and mid yawn yelp out as if saying “NO I will NOT go to sleep!”

– To go along with the photo above, Lila is a big time scowler. Lots of super concerned/angry brow faces all day long. We joke that she is like “wait, THESE are my parents?!!?” lol.

– Despite her best efforts, she is sleeping quite well at night for a four week old. About 4 1/2 hours and then 3 hours each night. It could be worse!

– Lila has a very intense stare. When you have her in your arms, she will lock eyes with you and stare at you. Looking into her eyes is one of my favorite things to do.

– She does NOT like getting her nose suctioned. Unfortunately that’s the only way to get those boogies out so she can breathe! Yesterday, Luke did it to her and she cried so hard her face turned purple (and my heart crumpled).

– I can’t really hold Lila against my chest anymore because she immediately wants to eat, but Luke still can. When she’s fussing a little, he will cuddle her close on his chest and she quiets right away. It melts my heart seeing them snuggled.

– Lila’s left ear sticks out a little. My mom calls it her “potato chip ear.” It’s adorably cute and the doctor said 99% it will lay flat once she grows.

– I am so happy that I am able to breastfeed successfully because it is my most special time spent with Lila. She makes me laugh so hard when she’s eating. First she’ll grunt and open her mouth so wide like “gimme, gimme, gimme.” And while eating she makes little sighs like “ahhh.” and when she is done, she is in the most awesome milk-coma ever. Here’s a video of it.

– Although not super cuddly so far, Lila does like to be held over my shoulder while I pat her back. Whenever I put her there, she sort of shifts around until she’s comfortable and then relaxes her whole body into mine letting out a little sigh.

I can’t believe it’s already been a month and at the same time that it’s ONLY been a month. It seems like she’s been here forever.

I’m so grateful that I get to experience this little life blossom each and every day. We’re constantly learning about her  and all her little quirks. I can’t wait to see what month 2, 3, 4 and so on will bring.