Dear Lila: You’re Two and a Half!

Dear Lila,

You turned two and a half last month and what a joy you are. A friend asked me yesterday what age I like best so far and I told her “every age gets better and better.” So far 2 1/2 is a lot of fun.

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I love this age because you’re still little enough that you say and do things not because you think we’ll be entertained by it, but just because you want to. This means you say and do a lot of REALLY cute things without even knowing it. Like when we asked you to “put your arm around Reagan for a picture.” lol

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We all have to laugh because for some reason you talk with a southern accent. This little twang you have going is seriously the cutest. Some of your southern sayings include:

– “Mommy can we go bye-bye sumpin’?” (Can we go out somewhere today)
– “Gon do mommy?” (what are you doing mommy)
– “A nudder one please?” (can I have another one)

Since you’re still learning to talk, you say some really cute things that I just don’t have the heart to correct. You call women “he” and men “she,” and anything that happened in the past is “last years.” As in “last years I ate ice cream” even though it was just last night.

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I joke with daddy that you’re similar to an ornery 85 year old man because you are very set in your ways and want everything done a particular way. Your bedtime routine must go in the right order or you’ll be the first to call us out for missing a step. You’re also really into doing things “by myself!!”

Daddy recently took the side off your crib so you can climb in an out on your own. You were so excited by your newfound freedom that we had a bit of a transition period while you learned that you still had to sleep! One night Daddy and I were watching TV at 10pm (you go to bed at 7:30), when you casually came downstairs decked out in your dress up clothes – tutu, bunny ears and jewelry.

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Speaking of dress up, your imagination has gotten very creative lately and you’re doing more and more pretend play. We absolutely love to hear you talk on your fake phone or have breakfast with your “friends.” Sometimes you even set a chair just for me, which melts my heart.

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One of the sweetest developments you’ve gone through these months, is the ability to name your feelings. You tell me when you need space, feel frustrated or are sad. On the flip side, you also tell us frequently and unprompted that you “lub” us very much. You have extended this love to your grandparents and family as well. This text came in from Mimi while she babysat the other night.

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You’ve been having a fun summer so far. I scaled back with work so I can spend more time with you. We go to the park, to 577 gardens, to the grocery store and of course, to the pool. You love showing off your “tricks,” which entails jumping off the edge and going under. As soon as you pop back up (thanks to your puddle jumper), you squeal “again! again! again!”

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Ladybug, you are the light of my life. I say prayers of thanks every day that I have you while I struggle to get pregnant again. My hurt hurts way less when I have you to play with or hug. You tell me often that “Mommy is going to have a baby. Not now, but soon!” and I hope you are right, because I know you’d be a wonderful big sister.

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You teach me new things about life every day and I feel immensely grateful that I get to be your mommy. Thank you for being my little bug.

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Love,

Mommy

Costco Gift Bag Giveaway – $190 Value!

Update: Congrats to MacKenzie who was the lucky random winner of the giveaway!

Since the weather has gotten warmer, I feel like we’re finally able to experience our neighborhood. Our neighbors are outside, the farmer’s market up the street has started for the summer and we’re venturing out to experience more of the local businesses.

One of the things I love about living in Perrysburg, OH is that it is a thriving, family-oriented community that seems to be growing and developing like crazy. A new development that we are especially excited about is the new Costco going in.

We personally have not been Costco members before, but after hearing about all the natural and organic options they offer, we are planning to become members. I was really happy when Costco reached out to me to help get the word out about their grand opening.

Costco Perrysburg Grand Opening

June 11 at 8:00 am

25400 N. Dixie Hwy, Perrysburg, OH

Become a member ahead of time at their temporary location: 4130 Levis Commons Blvd. Perrysburg, OH 43551

They graciously sent me some natural products to try like a big bottle of avocado oil, some natural Jenna Hipp nail polish and Kirkland all-natural body wash. Costco also offered up a giveaway for you guys that include a gift bag with some of their best organic, natural products, valued at $190!

Here’s whats included:

Costco Giveaway

  • Organic Maple Syrup
  • Variety Snack Nuts
  • Surface Wipes
  • Dried Blueberries
  • Almond Butter
  • Coconut Oil (2pk)
  • Himalayan Pink Salt
  • Albacore Tuna (8pk)
  • Jelly Belly
  • Macadamia Nut Clusters
  • Paper Towels (12pk)
  • Steak Strips
  • Unsalted Fancy Mixed Nuts
  • Organic Salsa (2pk)
  • Peanut Butter Pretzels
  • Body Lotion
  • Chocolate Covered Almonds
  • Apple Sauce (24pk)
  • Microwave Popcorn (44pk)

Pretty great products if you ask me! To enter to win the Costco gift bag*, just leave a comment on this blog post with your favorite Costco product. The giveaway will end on June 5 when a winner will be chosen at random.

Good luck and see you at Costco this summer!

* You don’t have to live in Perrysburg to win the gift bag – we’ll ship it to you where you live. 

Disclaimer: Costco provided me with product to try and the gift basket to giveaway. I only write about companies and products I enjoy and believe it. 

Mother’s Day 2015

I had a lovely Mother’s Day this year. It started the night before when I was rocking Lila before bed. She said “Daddy and I drew you a picture! It’s for you!” I asked her if it was for Mother’s Day and she said “Yes!” before settling back down.

The moment I woke up, my sweet husband handed me a decaf, breve, latte that he had gotten up early to run out to get. We laid in bed sipping our coffees just enjoying a slow morning. This a rare treat as Luke is an early riser who abhors just “laying” when there are things to get done!

Then Lila woke up and bounded into our room. With a little prompt from her dad, she said “Happy Muders Day, mommy” and gave me a big kiss along with the picture she drew me. We spent the morning playing tea set and dress up until it was time to go to church.

My mom and dad met us for mass, and while a bit roly poly, Lila made it through the whole hour without a hitch. Small victories here people!

After mass we headed over to brunch at Toledo Country Club. I was so impressed by the brunch they put on! Endless amounts of food from smoked salmon and shrimp cocktail, to duck in raspberry sauce and beef tenderloin and eight different types of dessert. I chose cheesecake with ice cream of course.

After brunch we milled around outside at TCC taking in the beautiful view of the river and green grass, while Lila and her cousin Reagan chased each other around, working off their ice cream rushes. We snapped these pictures to remember the day by.

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When we got home I took a short nap until my mom texted to see if I could join her at a movie. We saw Age of Adeline, which we enjoyed. I can’t reiterate how nice it is to be able to see an impromptu movie with my mom on Mother’s Day. This is why we moved home in a nutshell.

Still stuffed from our mid-day brunch feast, I got a night off from cooking dinner. Lila munched on some cheese and lunch meat, and Luke whipped up a giant bowl of coconut oil-popped popcorn for us to enjoy while we watched a documentary.

As I rocked Lila before bed, she lifted her head and said “I had a nice Mother’s Day with you.” My heart melted and I told her “I did too sweetie. You know, I always wanted to be a mommy, and when you were born, my wish came true.” Lila smiled and said “Just like in Cinder-rellie!” :)

During the whole day I felt loved and cherished, which is all I could ask for. I was worried I may feel a bit of sadness this Mother’s Day, by thinking about the pregnancy I lost this year and the subsequent struggles to conceive, but it really didn’t enter my mind.

I thank god often for giving me the gift of Lila before I entered this struggle with infertility. Going through days like Mother’s Day while dealing with infertility before having any children would be devastating, and my heart aches for the women who felt that on Sunday.

Being a wife and mother has always been what I’ve wanted most for my life. I just always knew that motherhood, while inherently challenging, would bring with it the most joy I would ever feel. This Mother’s Day, that joy was present in everything we did.

Update on Our Journey

I’ve been feeling guilty about not blogging here as much lately. I have had so many great things going on in my life that I mean to share here, but to be honest I’ve felt a little weighed down by our fertility journey.

It’s not that I am not enjoying all the good, like trips to Florida, planting a garden with Lila and celebrating 5 years being married to Luke, but it’s just that there feels like a heaviness in my heart that I carry. It’s hard for me to write from a happy, cheerful perspective and I also don’t want to get mired down either.

So I’ve been keeping to myself a bit and writing when I feel especially inspired. I hope you understand and stick around.

I will share a little update on our journey for those interested.

We started seeing a reproductive endocrinologist in March and I’m so thankful that we did because this doctor was able to diagnose my issue in the first visit. During an ultrasound, he noticed there was something abnormal in my uterus. Most likely a benign polyp or fibroid.

The good news is that it is relatively easy to remove. I will have surgery next week to clear it out. I am grateful we found this because polyps or fibroids cause infertility by blocking implantation. I had no typical symptoms, like heavy bleeding or painful periods, so we could have gone on and on trying without catching this.

These growths are caused by hormone fluctuations, so I’m thinking what most likely happened is that my miscarriage and the wild swing in hormones triggered this issue. But who really knows.

We are hopeful that this is my only issue and that my fertility will be back to normal post surgery. We meet with the doctor on Wednesday to get more information pre-surgery, but from what I’ve read online, you can start trying again the next cycle.

Throughout this journey, I’ve learned so much about myself, my relationships and my health. We are so hopeful that this long, sad process will be behind us soon. I appreciate all the prayers and support from our friends and family.

In the meantime, I’m keeping busy with work, gardening and loving on Lila. I have not lost sight of all the blessings in my life and am working to kick this rain cloud out of my heart. Here are some photos from the past few weeks that have made me smile.

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